Today was my first Mother’s Day. It was a day surrounded by family sharing love and joy and admiring my gorgeous baby girl. It was also an interesting mix of emotions for me. Today I reflected on the last 3 Mother’s Days and how painful those were for me. It made me think about all those still experiencing that pain today. It made me joyful that my period of childlessness is over but made me hurt deeply for those still suffering. There honestly is not a day that goes by in that I am somehow reminded of my own struggle through infertility and the incredible pain that it brought. And now when I think about that time, I think about those still going through it. I think about all the ways our social media, television, and culture make it difficult to not be reminded every day of childlessness. Pregnancy announcements, baby product ads, baby shower invites, and even a constant stream of kid pictures on Facebook can cause extreme pain and frustration and ruin an entire day for women going through infertility. I think about this every time I share a photo of my daughter on social media. I remember how difficult it was for me to see the joy of motherhood all around me. I hope to be an advocate for these women and be encouraging to them to see the success of my own journey. But deep down I know that seeing success only reminds you of your failure. I remember so many conversations with close friends and family members who were trying their best to care for me through that time and encourage me, but the pain of infertility is felt so deeply and the sense of failure as a women so near to the heart, that there is very little that helped console me. But I do believe there are ways to help these women and I want to implore all reading to consider these small things.
First, be conscious of what and how you post things on social media. We all want to share our joys with family and friends and social media is a great way to do that. I am in that group myself and am guilty of posting way too many photos of my child. However, there are a few ways you can be more conscious of how you share things in order to better appreciate those struggling with infertility.
1. NEVER and I mean NEVER use pregnancy as an April Fools Joke. I don’t think I have to elaborate on this one, it should be pretty clear.
2. If you are aware of someone’s struggle, reach out to them independently about your pregnancy announcement before making it social media official. A friend did this for me and it really softened the blow of scrolling through Facebook and seeing “another pregnancy announcement.” I considered it very thoughtful that she allowed me a “private” moment to process her announcement so that I could be more joyful with her in the public one.
3. Try to limit your complaints about pregnancy or motherhood on social media. I understand we all need an outlet sometimes for the stress and frustrations that come with parenting but try to utilize your personal relationships for this instead of a public platform. When all you desire in the whole world is to become a parent and all you see is others complaining about the precious gift they were given, it’s very easy to become bitter and angry with that person and can damage relationships. I remember having to work very hard to “let go” of some of my own frustrations on this matter.
4. Be an advocate and spread the word about infertility. It’s much more prevalent than you might realize and it’s more than likely affecting someone close to you. Encourage others to be more conscientious of their social media use and always remind people of my first point around April 1st!
Second, simply listen, love, and encourage. There really is not anything you can say or do for someone going through infertility accept be there. All I ever needed was a listening ear on my bad days and nights. What I needed most through my journey was just someone to vent to about all the painful things I saw on Facebook or the ridiculous amount of emotions I went through in one day. I just wanted to feel heard in a safe, non-judgmental space. I needed to be able to talk to someone about the horrible fights I had with my husband because of stress infertility was putting on our relationship. I just needed to say it all out loud so it wasn’t consuming my whole being. One of the best things you can do for someone going through this, is simply listen. Please do not try to try to “fix it,” explain it away, or offer solutions, just listen. If there was an explanation or fix, trust me we would have done it.
Lastly, while laughter is good medicine, please do not try to joke away infertility. Do not say kitschy things, like “well I’m sure once you stop trying it will happen!” Or “Now that you’ve decided to adopt, I bet you’ll get pregnant.” Or “At least you get to have as much unprotected sex as you want.” While we understand that you are trying to help us see the bright side or lighten up the conversation, you only hurt us more deeply. If you aren’t sure what to say, maybe just choose not to say anything at all.
So today, on the day when we honor our mothers, I want everyone to remember those feeling deep sorrow over the inability to become a mother and make a choice to love and support them in a more conscious way.